Many a time when I’m alone, I walk at a snail’s pace. I could sense eyes on me; people must be wondering what I’m doing, whether I’m in the right mind or not. It’s not that I have too much time to spare, but they simply do not know how important these little moments alone are to me. Why do I do that? I’m the one who always gets defeated by emotions, but I don’t stop trying. I go on, in my own way, oblivious to gazes.
I always make it a point to spend some time to reflect. Thinking about myself, thinking about what happened during the day, what I have done, how I have treated others, how I was treated. It makes me feel better. Knowing what I have done wrong, I can make sure that I would not repeat the mistake again. Knowing that I have done something right, I will keep it in mind. Sorting out my thoughts and emotions always makes me feel better, and I will know how I should stand up to welcome the days ahead. Without reflection, my emotions and thoughts will be like the colours on an abstract painting; you will have a hard time making out what is portrayed.
Sometimes we really need to slow down and wind the clock back to have a look at our lives. Or else days pass, time flies past, and even those little things that had put a smile on your face will become vague, or even forgotten. If you look back every now and then, memories will be more deeply imprinted.
Taking a slow walk alone, or staring into space, are ways I reward myself with a little alone time. I keep my emotions in check by spending time alone, thinking about my life, and myself. Maybe you should too. At least a couple of minutes each time, stay still, shut your mind from the many distractions around you, and ponder. You will learn to know how much difference this few minutes could make in your everyday life.
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Cheryl Ting Cher Yuke, a.k.a Cheryl Plankton is a 1st year dental student in MMMC. Learning to enjoy life, have fun and study smart in the land where the cows roam freely.